sometimes i get this beautiful leggy clematis that comes all the way from japan. i was in japan once and there wasn't any clematis. there was a lot of horse meat. and strawberries that look like they are made out of plastic. traveling alone for a few days in kyoto i rented a bicycle and saw all kinds of crazy stuff. lost at dusk, I looked around at how beautiful everything was and forgot where I was. panic insued. then, like a mirage in the dessert, i found a starbucks and regained a feeling of presence and control.